Tamara Chaos

Last night the temperature in the room was warm, so I woke up at 11 pm. I was then able to sleep until 5:00 a.m. I decided to just get up because so has to work really, really late and I don't want my alarm to wake him up.  Jesus' pace is slow. Instead of attacking the day, embrace the day. Listen to the Podcast on YouTube music here Here is the short version of you don't have time to watch the whole video.  This is the long version:  Watch the adventure unfold here 'This makes for harmony among the members, so that all the members care for each other. If one part suffers, all the parts suffer with it, and if one part is honored, all the parts are glad. All of you together are Christ’s body, and each of you is a part of it. ' 1 Corinthians 12:25-27 Read more here 8:35 am. For a while now I have been cleaning this morning. I finally got my mugs organized like I've been wanting to do, and I also got my towels organized like I wanted to do.  We bought n...

On the news they have been talking about whether or not you should shower everyday. In my opinion I'm going to shower everyday because I have a problem with acne. So if I do not shower, I will have acne.  In other news, I have been cleaning this morning very quickly because I wanted to get to the gym. It's been really fun preparing different scenes to film A Passion for Jesus. This episode is going to take place in Mexico. We have already filmed most of the b-roll. I did take a couple of blogging videos this morning, but then I realized I didn't like them, so I deleted them. I wasn't going to make them public, I was going to post them to this blog, but I still decided that I just didn't want to keep them. Right now I feel like there's a lot of things that I need to get done, but I'm going to remember my first episode, and take my time. Things will get done when they get done. I do need to take my focus off of my next episode though, and focus on making the D...

This is something that has always terrified me, but I'm getting braver. Today was so touching. What a touching moment. At MCD there is always two homeless men begging. Today I bought them each a gift card and I was going to leave, but one of them wanted to sing a song to me. He served in Iraq and was shot at and got lung cancer and only has his right lung. It was so nice to hear his story. Then at the fun farm, we met really engaging people selling their various wares. I have posted 4 YouTube shorts on my YouTube channel Heart of Tamara.  Alice and the White Rabbit! Frowniez The Old Woman's Shoe I'm Just A Teacher by Michael Windsong

A Passion for Jesus -The Right Jesus, will be filmed in Mexico.  ‭Numbers 16:31, 33-35 NLT‬ [31] He had hardly finished speaking the words when the ground suddenly split open beneath them. [33] So they went down alive into the grave, along with all their belongings. The earth closed over them, and they all vanished from among the people of Israel. [34] All the people around them fled when they heard their screams. “The earth will swallow us, too!” they cried. [35] Then fire blazed forth from the Lord and burned up the 250 men who were offering incense. https://bible.com/bible/116/num.16.31-35.NLT Nestled deep in the Acacia Woods is a cave taken over by a Christian group called Positive Light. They are a pro-Christian group that is dedicated to spreading the gospel. Zayna stumbled upon this cave and ran off with a journal that Positive Light stole from a rebel group called the Opal Syndicate. The Opal Syndicate stole it because they didn't want anything to d...

‭Numbers 14:18 NLT‬ [18] ‘The Lord is slow to anger and filled with unfailing love, forgiving every kind of sin and rebellion. But he does not excuse the guilty. He lays the sins of the parents upon their children; the entire family is affected—even children in the third and fourth generations.’ https://bible.com/bible/116/num.14.18.NLT However, I am aware of a scripture that has changed this now. Parents and children are responsible for their own sins. The law was changed by God.  I've been reading through the Bible from the beginning, and today on 4-26-24 I have started with Numbers 12. This morning I will be going to Butch and Bobbies house to record something from them, then put it on DVD for them this weekend. I will get that done and then turn my focus back to A Passion for Jesus. I have been contacted by an actor who wants to be a part of it. That's excellent. I will be writing it out soon.  It says, God is slow to anger. That's how we should be. Jesus is always mov...

‭Romans 8:28-29 NLT‬ [28] And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. [29] For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.  https://bible.com/bible/116/rom.8.28-29.NLT 1 John 3:5-6 NLT‬ [5] And you know that Jesus came to take away our sins, and there is no sin in him. [6] Anyone who continues to live in him will not sin. But anyone who keeps on sinning does not know him or understand who he is. https://bible.com/bible/116/1jn.3.5-6.NLT It's 7:57 am on Thursday, April 25th, 2024. I'm sitting at the kitchen table working on my Bible reading and outside is very unusually still. No wind, barely any birds flying around. Tavi is enjoying her spot, looking out the window.  And Jordan in hers I wonder what adventures today will bring. Now that I've finished my...

I'm not saying this because I'm a fan of Taylor Swift, trust me, it's not my style of music at all, but let me say this. Leave Taylor Swift alone. As Christians, we are supposed to look past what we don't like about someone and see what God has created. Whether she believes in God or not, she's still one of his creations. There are millions of artists in this world. Some are deemed good because of their songs, messages or lifestyles-that's what we can see. Taylor Swift has not once proclaimed that she was a godly artist or simply an artist that made wholesome songs. We can look at each other and think, oh, that person is not acting in accordance to the Bible. Is Taylor Swift a threat to youth? Maybe, maybe not. But hear this, the more Christians complain about her, the more people are going to flee as far away from Christianity as possible? Did Jesus go to people and say, oh, wait till you hear the things I know about this woman, let me tell you. And oh, I heard...

 This morning I created a new server on discord called Avakin Tamara Chaos. I think it will be cool to have another chat option so that I can be free to write normal without being censored by the game.  Brenda recorded her part of the video, so I am about to check that out. This will be for my video called A Passion for Jesus. I will possibly be making 2 versions-one for YouTube and one for YouTube music. The one for YouTube music will be the message only. 

Facebook added a new feature where we can make a profile similar to our basic starting account, except more freedom when it comes to changing names. I imagine that this would really come in handy if people are into roleplaying or cosplaying-they can easily set up an identity without having to fill out the entire enrollment form again. So, maybe in a sense, that's what I'm doing. It is a Tamara Chaos profile. I have plans to change my old fb account to my birth name again. I probably won't use it, but I don't want people to mix it up with this profile I've created. I have no friends and I don't follow anyone and that's how I'm going to do it. I have moved all the other social media icons to the very last page on my phone. I'm hoping that eventually, I will fill my time with so many things that I won't even think about social media. This is what other people do I think-that's why they often take days to text me back. It gives me the impression ...

I am overdue for a haircut. I think for one that will help my aggravating hair, but I do want to look at options for making it less irritating. I might get more layers. If I want long straight hair for a video, I'll get a wig. Wigs are seeking to work out really good lately.  So this is a before shot.  Last night was April 13th and we attended Rend Collective concert. I posted a ton of shorts on YouTube and I have a longer video that I might post as well. I need to download a bunch of things from google photos because I'm running out of space.  I'm not sure what we will do this afternoon, but one thing I might do is get my bike ready to ride. On the TV this morning, the pastor was encouraging people to take a day of enjoyment. We work so hard for our money and get the stuff we want and then we don't enjoy it. He said his father would come home and put on his starch pants and he knew that meant they were going out to eat. He would go to the ATM and take out $...

I've still been continuing my migration away from mainstream social media. I've been going through mewe and deleting all my posts that I've ever made. I was reminded that Elijah would lock my door and say I lock it! And Isabelle would refer to her toenails as feet nails. Lol.  I have posted links to my blog and YouTube on MEWE in case anyone wants to check them out, but I'm not worried if they do or not. Many people are too busy, and so, as the same, sometimes I'm too busy too. My main complaint is that every time I do check social media, nothing has changed. It's best to not check often. If I post something, there is very little interaction except an emoji. So, I have decided that there are other things I would rather be doing than trying to do something that's never going to happen for me. Because I have borderline personality disorder and ADD, it's always going to be hard for me to relate to a majority of people. Thank God I have Phil. We get along gr...

Pat, Natasha and Tim left Tuesday morning to go home. I spent Tuesday doing laundry and finishing up the first phase of A Passion for Jesus episode 1. I really believe it's coming together fantastic. On Thursday, I have to go to the dentist, so I can't film, but I might film Friday morning. I'm looking for a table to put in the background, so that might delay just a tad. I found one on marketplace for $20. It might work, but I still want to look around. It would be nice to find one cheaper and maybe just a little bigger.  A screen grab from that scene. I really believe that this episode is going to be exciting for the viewer. I am going to make a shorter version so that it can be played on YouTube music.  Other posts about this episode have other screengrabs. Follow the label on the post to see them.   So far, I have 746 subscribers. Here is a screenshot with some stats.  This is so awesome and I thank God for it. This channel is for Him. This is not my channel....

I'm in the middle of making my first episode of A Passion for Jesus. I bought a table to use in the video from an older gentleman on Facebook marketplace.  Then, I came to Starbucks for some coffee. This will be my last visit to any Starbucks. I have so many reasons as to why I'm no longer going to be a patron. I will admit, I've been able to master the exact recipe that I like, and the Starbucks inside Target has the best price, but I'm still breaking ties.  The recipe is this:  Regular hot coffee 2 pumps of dark chocolate syrup  3 pumps of vanilla  Whipped cream  Chocolate drizzle As usual, the order was called out very quietly and I nearly missed my whipped cream and chocolate drizzle before it dissipated. But it is good. Both locations have done a good job with this recipe. I can do the same at home.  My number one coffee bar of all time tho, is Light House Coffee Bar and that will be my exclusive location as much as possible. But this ...

I went down to feed the cats, but there was only one when there should be 2. I looked all over the place. I looked in all her usual places, but she wasn't there. So I figured I'm just going to have to wait and see if she comes out. So I went upstairs to get ready. When I came back down to start breakfast, I made my coffee and then I went to the cabinet to get the pan to make my egg and out she comes.  And then promptly gave her her breakfast and she ate.  I think you just never know about cats. I'm glad I found her in a reasonable amount of time. 

BTS shots of Passion for Jesus  I have a new dress and necklace on today. I bought it for my birthday. Pat, Natasha and Tim will be coming this evening from Minnesota and we will be traveling Monday to witness the eclipse. It will be so nice to see them and witness this amazing feat of God together.  I made a video talking about the eclipse because so many people are freaking out about it. But we just need to trust in God. The world will mock this attitude, but it's because they are so naive.  Listen here to Don't Let the Eclipse Scare You I have once again decided to flee social media. It's so stupid. I can go through so much effort and for what? ♥️👍🏼 Whoopdie do. I don't get interaction here sure, but this blog certainly gives me more options than social media.  I've been working on the first episode of A Passion for Jesus. It is getting closer to being completed. This first episode took a ton of preparation, but future episodes won't...